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♥ Thursday, October 8, 2009 @ 8:12 PM
`On the Verge I think in time to come, he's gonna give up on me. Am I that bad? Maybe I am. Maybe I'm a person that is not worth of any love. And come t think of it, What is love actually? I have been dreaming of him leaving me. Is it a sign? My heart is weak.  ♥ Wednesday, September 16, 2009 @ 9:50 PM
`Am sad. Am affected. Am lost. Things that I choose not to see. Things that I choose not to be bothered with. Things that I choose to close one eye at. Things that tried to endure. Things that I wish its not happening. But it happened. I saw RO at my office bus stop today. Was quite happy to see her. After she left the company due to her pregnancy, office have been pretty quiet.No chitty chatty, but more of sounds from everyone's typing on the keyboard. Casual chat with her, asking why is she happen to be at the office bus stop. Told me that she's collecting something from them. I was wondering who was the them, and why not go up and collect if she have left some stuff behind. We would all be delighted to see her. Soon enough, almost all of the girls from our office head out to the bus stop. Hugging her and they all left in a rush chasing to board the same bus together when all of them live at different location in Singapore. Okie. Now i understand. They had actually planned to have a farewell together without the rest of us (which is only me, JT, EC and PC).. I have gotten 2 pay raise since working at this company. Though the raise wasn't much. But it really shows the appreciation from my manager. I know she's the one who proposed it. I can see she thinks highly of me. My career path was even planned out by her. From a junior staff, she plans and draws my career beautifully, leaving me to put the pieces together. From admin and finance assistant, to executive, to eventually handling the daily operations. Who gets such an opportunity at such a young age? Out of 10, there may not have another chance. I'm only 22. Most people at such a age is only a junior assistant, and gain status after few years down the road. Or maybe at some retail shop doing retail sales. But being in this position, is not easy. You either get misunderstood or people outcast you. Office politics. I just feel the pinch today. People start seeing me as a management level, discussions and meetings with the management people. So colleagues do not sit with you at lunch. Colleagues do not chat with you much. Just formal questions and answers. Colleagues do not invite you for gathering. I'm not those ambitious kind who wants people to respect me. Or be under me. I do not want. I work hard, cuz I wanted recognition. That I'm capable. That without a cert, I am also capable. I'm not handicap just because I hate to study. Just because I am without a cert. I wanted to learn new things. I wanted to try everything I could in this life. We only life once. I wanted to get to a level where some other people might not have this kind of opportunity. And I also do like to help people. But I guess it ended up that I look like a boot licker. Or maybe a two headed snake. Or someone who tell tales. Where I am only doing my job. As of what I am required to. But due to the path I am going to, with given opportunity, in exchange what I got is outcast. Maybe I'm weak. Such a small set back, I'm not able to handle. Did I just disappoint myself? But yes, I'm very affected by it. There we are, trying our best to plan a farewell that we have missed out when RO left, everyone's reply was they are not able to make it. They are busy. The best part is VO claims that she's having a financial difficulty. Saying that if we need to pay for the farewell, she can't afford to go. We made effort to plan regardless of our heavy workloads and overdue piles of work. Yet, they planned their own farewell for themselves, out casting the few of us. I'm stress. I'm stress from workloads. I'm stress from overdue work piles. I'm stress of my boss. I'm stress of myself not handling well. I'm stress of not able to cope. I'm stress that I don't perform well. I'm stress of not able to deliver what people expect from me. And this causes arguments and frequent quarrels with my bf. Having headaches. Sleepless nights. Lack of rest. What's my pro and cons? I'm starting to feel imbalance. ♥ Wednesday, August 19, 2009 @ 10:36 PM
`Old I'm getting older i guess. I get tired easily. Haha. I've got severe headache ytd throughout the whole night. Maybe due to overworking and staying up late for the whole week. Applied for leave for my birthday. But was questioned by my boss. I'm starting to lose confident in this company's management. Sigh... Can i be a tai tai? In my dreams.. I'm weird. Forget about it. ♥ Monday, August 17, 2009 @ 12:57 AM
`Tough.. The last time i cried very badly for a deceased was when I'm still in primary 2 or 3. It was my grandma during that time. I did not shed a single tear for all the 4 days at my uncle's wake. My manager had advised me. That crying will make the people around me who used to be very close with my uncle to feel worst. He told me, that there must be someone in the family who must "act" to be strong. He said, if everyone is to cry together, then there will not be anyone to lead the rest. And he's right. My mum choose to be the "strong" one. I did not see her shed a single tear throughout the whole ceremony. But i know, she hurt the most deep in her heart. He's her younger brother after all. Looking at her, i realized that she have aged alot throughout all these years. She grew thinner and frail. Wrinkles tattoo her hands. I know, i'm not being a good daughter. I ought to stay home more often. I ought to help out more on the housework. I'm very fortunate to have her as my mum. I have decided, to help her with the housework from now on. I don't know if i can last for how long. Cuz i'm always protected by my family. I seldom have to do any housework. She have done so much for the family. I love you, mum. ♥ Saturday, August 15, 2009 @ 12:32 AM
`A sad thing in life.. Thursday. August 13 2009. 4:30pm I received a call from an unknown number. I hesitated to answer. I seldom answer unknown numbers. "Hello." "Hello. Ah mei (that's how my mum call me). Uncle passed away already." I didn't know what to say. "Huh... Ok... You need me to help in anything?" "Not at the moment." "Oh. Ok." "You get your own dinner tonight. I wouldn't be back to cook tonight." "Ok." "Come back then we talk." We hang up Tears start to swell up. I cried. I'm not even close with this uncle. At all. I've only visited him twice throughout his illness. But it's heartbreaking enough. I hated separations. I hated sad things to happen, I'm very emotional. The very first time when i visited him. I nearly wasn't able to recognise him at all anymore. He became very thin. Almost just his skin covering his bones. No. Not almost. What really left is without any flesh. He looked so much older. I didn't know what cancer can do to a person until i saw it with my own eyes. He cant talk. He cant eat. He don't even remember some stuff. He cant drink. He's eyes cant even close. It's a torture. He's gone now. Probably to somewhere that he will not suffer anymore. To join my grandparents. Life is so short. Even shorter if you have any illness. ♥ Wednesday, August 12, 2009 @ 9:46 PM
`Crazily in love. I'm very crazily in love with boyfriend. His love have craved deep into my heart. I'm a little fortunate girl. Most fortunate girl on earth. Wo hen xin fu. =) Really. We have ups and down. But still.... I really thank god that i've found a really good boyfriend. ♥ Tuesday, August 11, 2009 @ 12:43 AM
`Does it work? Is it working? Is blogging from N97 working? Woot!? ♥ Monday, June 1, 2009 @ 7:56 PM
`New on the List Its updated! With more WANTS! Its FRESH! 1. Laptop 2. Holiday to Taiwan 3. My Own Branded Wallet x2 4. My Own Branded Bag 5. Change A New HP 6. A Makeover 7. Rebonding My Frizzy Hair 8. Change My Wardrobe 9. Digital Camera I had this very sudden feeling. That I wanna go KTV with my prince. But on the other hand, I'm very shy. I sing very horribly! What if I scare my own bf away! OMG! ROAR! P.S: My computer's card reader is officially down. Sigh. I want my own laptop soon. And I'll be free from these irritating problems.... ♥ Sunday, May 31, 2009 @ 1:47 PM
`Guilty. The last post I've updated was in March. And its May now (tomorrow is June already)! Yea, totally guilty (again) for abandoning my blog up till now. Can't help it. I was busy!! Busy with what? Busy with not being able to handle my time well. Shocking News No. 1: It was a horrible month for me. And my bf. We had frequents disagreement and argument throughout the whole month. We were so sweet before. Full of sweets and honeys. Yet the month of May felt heavy with unhappiness. Where did all the unhappiness come from? Entering our sweet and happy relationship. Luckily the air is clearer now, knowing that we should give in more to each other. Compromising is the key. Shocking News No. 2: My big big hand is a driver now. Nearly shocked the hell out of me and discovering that he was bought a car. I was super unhappy about it initially. But I had to suppress it. I knew it was something he have always wanted. Therefore, I kept quiet. With myself worrying if he's able to cope with the sudden huge expense. Goodbye to our nice meals. Goodbye to spending too much. Hello to scrimp and save. Hello to working harder. So much as I wanted to share his burden, I'm not of any help at all with the inconsiderable pay. I'm beginning to wonder if I should get like a 2nd job with is either freelance or part-time. But I'm doubtful at my own time management. Shocking New No. 3: Its my bf's birthday month. Gave him a semi birthday surprise. Its a big thing. And I've not planned any one's birthday before. Moreover, it cost quite an amount. Which I needed to discuss with bf, for approval. Hope he enjoyed himself for that day. Will upload the photos here after my com regains its craziness (its not reading my memory card!). Shocking News No. 4: I've gotten a pay rise! $150 Its seems a lot. But by looking at my total pay itself, its still seems little. More workload. Admin, Finance, HR. Can anyone imagine how busy am I every single day? So much things to do. Such small amount of pay. Sigh...... I'll endure.... Cuz I know, eventually I'll be an asset even if I leave the company in future. Besides, its just stepping stone for me to save up. I need savings. Been working for around 2 to 3 years. And do not have savings at all. I've been in and out of jobs. Spending every cents of my savings now and then. And I seriously regret it. If I were to stay in any job, by now, I think my pay is higher than what I'm getting now. Shocking News No. 5: I've just concluded a list of WANTS: 1. Laptop 2. Holiday to Taiwan 3. My Own Branded Wallet 4. My Own Branded Bag 5. Change A New HP 6. A Makeover 7. Rebonding My Frizzy Hair 8. Change My Wardrobe Okie. Enough of heavy information for the day. I'd better get something to eat. Or else my mum is gonna nag at me until I'll go crazy. ♥ Sunday, March 15, 2009 @ 12:45 PM
`24 hrs a day isn't enough... I need more than 24 hours a day..! It's not enough for me! Or maybe its because I'm bad at planning out my time. Thing's I need/want/expected to do: 1. Webby design. 2. Meet up with friends (I miss every 1 of them! esp huijia, crystal, lihui and jinxing) 3. Study for my upcoming exams 4. Spare time out for future part time work 5. Spare time out to do social voluntary work 6. Flyer design and distribution 7. Enough time for me to rest 8. Shopping 9. Sign up for enrichment classes 10. Doing well in my job (that includes of having enough time to rest to have a alert mind at work) 11. Not neglecting bf, and maintain going out as often. Everytime I'm working as a full-time job, I'm always busy. Until my body is so prone to get sick I'm actually super stress can... Just that I don't talk about it. For what I feel, talking about it wouldn't help. Cuz things are still needed to be done. Recently met up with QB. I shall give him a nickname of my whining buddy. Everytime we meet up, we are always whining. About job, life, studies, etc etc... Whatever that we are not satisfied in our life, we just whinnnn.... But most of the time, I'm not the one whinning. I'm more of the listener. That's what ST felt in the past. She said I'm always a good listener, when someone needs a listening ear. I used to be good at giving advices too. But not now I guess. Maybe I'm getting more and more can't be bothered to give any advice. Because we are so old already. Everyone of us past 21. We clearly know what we should and should not do. Just that we want somebody to reassure. These few days, I was quite mean to bf.. I didn't know why. Maybe cuz of the stress I need to take up. I seriously need a holiday. Wishing to travel ........ ♥ Tuesday, February 17, 2009 @ 12:21 PM
`Valentine 2009 With valentine day nearing, I was panicky, about what gift to prepare for bf. Besides, I stil owe him presents. For our 2nd, and 3rd month (yes, I know I'm very late with my presents...). And valentine day is around the corner. And our 4th month falls on the 15th of the month. Which means. I owe him a total of 4 presents. Super panicky. I didn't want to keep owing him presents. I didn't want him to feel disappointed, not being able to get any presents. So, I'm cracking my brain for the past 2 to 3weeks. Trying to hard to think, with my bird brain, of what to give him. And I want to make handmade gift for him. So it doubles the challenge. Searching through different places for inspiration, I've the suddenly thought of making handmade cookies. Something which I've not done before. I don't like to do anything similar that I've done for my previous ex-es. Cuz he's special to me. Someone that my eyes could only see. Ok! Time to start work! Finding recepies online. Going to supermarket to buy ingredients. And I'm back at home trying out with the recepie I've found. Besides, I wanted to try out how to handle with the oven we have at home. Something that's in our kitchen, but I'm totally unfamiliar with.  I forgot to take pictures while I was preparing it. Only managed to take snapshots of after putting my dough in the oven.  Obviously my oven is not very powerful. My cookies look so pale! As if it got scared in the oven.  After cooling.. It looks a little darker though........ Anyway. This batch are not for eating. Its only for testing. So the next thing I do, I put them back in. And bake until they are black. Just to get the hang of the oven. After getting so confident about my handmade cookies. And happy with my smart idea, my plan was washed down the drain when bf came over to my house. And found out that I was preparing cookies for him. I was very sad. Very emo. The happy feeling that I want nf to be surprised that I'm able to make cookies, was not anymore achieveable. I seldom, or even NEVER thought or mention about cooking or baking. I wanted to surprise him that I'll be wanting to cook or bake something just for him. But the surprise was gone. I didn't want to give up making cookies for him. I want him to eat cookies that I've made. I want him to be able to tell me that they're nice. So two days later, I went to do my shopping again. And I made cookies again. This time, for eating.  Looks a little darker. Lets try out after baking...  Tadaa~ Looks more like cookies now. Yummy! I'm shy to admit. But I must and I'm proud to let everyone know that, my cookies are a huge SUCCESS! I've brought some of them to office, and my colleagues gave me good compliments. It really builds up my confidence. And I served it to my precious prince. He seems to like it too. But I hope he like it cuz it taste good, and not liking it just to give me "face". Ultimately, I still have to find anything idea for valentine day. Think think think..... What should I do? Ting! Idea! A mini photo album! Of cuz, this time, I wouldn't let him have the chance to dig any information out of me. I have to prepare it discreetly! But the week before valentine was a chaotic week for me. Running around for interviews. Meeting bf after interviews cuz I miss him. =) And getting home late and tired, and still has to send resumes to look for more opportunities for myself. Nevertheless, I'm still able to get myself a day off from all the busy activities and look for present for him. I was preparing to go out alone when Lun offered to acompanied me around to get my present. Whereas, he's also searching for gifts for his gf too. Poor Lun, followed me the entire day. Eventually, I got all my materials and headed home. Start of my masterpieces!  First, I start with the decoration of my paper for the background.  Then, draw and cut out similar circles of the paper.  Developed our photos out, and framed them up.  Decorate the top cover, and writing up our stories.....         Decorate it a bit more... Nice and Sweet. =)   The card, for my sexy boyfriend. hehe.. =P  The present that I've owed him long ago. Its a letter opener. Not something to kill with him. =) It was a nice, thoughtful and sweet valentine day for both of us. We met up only in the afternoon as both of us were very tired from preparing presents for each other. Bf insisted to come over to pick me up. Something which he have not done before.  My silly darling boy brought me flowers. =D          Our neoprints for valentine day.    Our valentine dinner at Jumbo at East Coast Park. =) We ended our day at bf's friend's chalet. Its a simple, yet wonderful valentine day, with effort from bf. I could say, I've very contented with what I have around me. Including my prince, my friends for many years, my family and my job. Yes... I've found a job recently, with the very bad economy now. I'm considered very lucky. And I want to do well. And I shall try and give everything all my best. For our future. =) Signing off. I love my prince. =) ♥ Tuesday, February 10, 2009 @ 12:15 PM
`Long time no update Looking at my previous post, I realized that I have not been posting for almost a month. Maybe its also a good thing? That people would not be always reading your blog. Somehow, I feel stress when people reads my blog. Or telling me that I've not been blogging lately. The more I hear that, the more I'm reluctant to blog. Or I had so much to say. But I didn't have the time to sit in front of the computer just to blog. Or by the time when I had the time, I don't remembered what I want to write about previously. That explains more or less why I'm not blogging. Sudden emo feelings raised up lately. Nah... Its not about my relationship. Its more about my future. Looking for a secure job now is difficult. Do I really wanna stick to accounts line? Do I not want to go out of my comfort zone? Do I not want to try out other jobs? Do I have the ability to take up challenges along the way? Am I contented with what I want? Its a decision. Now or never. To decide on what path I wanna take. Thinking back, I made myself emo again of why I've not been studying well in the past. Etc etc etc etc... Yes, same old complains.... But its a regret in my life. I don't want to live in regrets. Therefore I'm afraid of making any new steps now. I'm afraid that I would cause another misfortune to myself. Recently... I've felt so lonely.. As we age, Do we not have a really good friend to share our thoughts? Our happiness? Our sadness? Our concerns? Our ups and downs? Where's all my good friends? Where's all my friends that I'm able to share my ups and downs? Friends around me are just mere acquaintance. Friends that are only able to share joys, not sorrows. Friends that meet up for fun. But not friends who meet up for serious matters or willing to give a listening ear. They are not at all interested in each others personal life or feelings. Or is it that, the more we age, the more we do not know how to open ourselves up? We don't relate to one another as much as we do in the past. Like we used when we are studying? My number of friends shrinking. Each and everyone of us, being busy with our own personal life. Signing off. - Am I forgotten? - ♥ Tuesday, January 13, 2009 @ 11:24 PM
` I can't help it but to feel lazy to begin blogging at all. After days of craziness, Craziness of not playing, but Craziness of going out almost everyday when I have the time. Craziness of spending my days unproductively. Craziness of working myself so hard at work. Craziness of having so much stress around me. Craziness of not wanting to do anything at all. Totally crazy. I'm not even sure of what have I been doing for the past 2 to 3 weeks. What have I done or what have I achieved. All I've been doing was just getting around busily. I've been totally lazy too. Not feel like working at all. Wanting to shed off any responsibilities at work, just because its killing me with stress. But on the other hand, I could not as I'm all alone and I need to feed myself. Certain things been weighing on my mind for quite some time. Something I wanna write about. So many random stuffs. So many feelings. So many thoughts. So many views. But I'd always forgot it when I actually have the time to blog. Just like a bumble bee. Getting busy with life. But not knowing of what purpose am I busy with. I'm aimless. And I'm in my comfort zone. This is no good. Aimless = no direction in life. I do have dreams. So much dreams. That I wished I'm a vampire just like Edward Cullen. (He's so hot!) So that I'm able to live long enough to be able to fulfil my dreams. But I'm aimless of what I want to do, or what I should be doing. Like what's my future long term job, what I wanna major in, what I wanna focus on, what I wanna do/achieve in 3 to 5 years time. Only dreams, but no stable and achievable aims. Thinking back, I think I had similar blog entries in my previous blogs. This shows how aimless am I. Aimless for the past 2 to 3 years! And STILL aimless. -.- As for comfort zone, hmmm... How shall I describe it.... Humans do not improve themselves when they are in their comfort zone. Comfort zones varies for different people. But the bottom line boils down to being comfortable with yourself in your life, gradually unable to improve yourselves, and might up up being lazy. Currently, I'm in my comfort zone. Therefore, that is why I had my own dreams. To prevent ourselves from not being in our comfort zones, we had to do things that we are not comfortable with. Something that could improve ourselves, yet we have not tried or never thought of doing it. I shall skip the details for this. Getting sleepier. Have not been blogging for several days. There's good and bad stuffs that happens. I never post my current unhappy stuffs lately. Because I don't see a point. Stuffs are always ongoing. Things happen today. But situations will change tomorrow. Unless its an issue that's already over, or else I would not whin. Its late. Time to sleep and shall start the battle at work again tomorrow! Cheers! Am I not appreciative? Am I appreciated? Am I too greedy? Or am I giving too much? ♥ Monday, December 29, 2008 @ 12:42 PM
`Birthdays Time passes so quickly this year. Or maybe it passes even more quickly for me for the last half of the year. Just in the blink of eye, I'm 21. Just in the blink of eye, my friends of my batch have already turned 21. Just in the blink of eye, so many things had happened to me. Just in the blink of eye, so many changes in my life compared to earlier this year. Just in the blink of eye, I've learnt so much, through happy and sad times. Just in the blink of eye, so many people come and go in my life. Just in the blink of eye, I've made so many decisions. Just in the blink of eye, year 2009 is coming and we are leaving away from year 2008. After digging up some friends facebook, I realized I wasn't tagged or given a copy of pictures taken at Weishan's 21st birthday. Its okie~ I shall upload it here instead. =)  SiewTeng, Audrey, Weishan, Me, Shuquan -> the senior gang from jtss dance.  Audrey, Joel, Weishan, Me, Shuquan Another picture from Audrey's birthday.  Me, Audrey, Shuquan with loads of present by the side! Not forgetting Jinxing's birthday that had past recently. But we did not take any picture. I wonder why? Had to tell her sorry for not being able to get a cake for her. Cuz it would be horrifying for just four of us to finish a huge cake. So we just spent the night with steamboat dinner and chilling out at Hard Rock cafe. (I still prefer Wala Wala's live band best!) Pictures I've taken from Jinxing's facebook:  Bf's face red due to the alcohol.. hee  Being mischievous not wanting to take picture together with bf.  Okie. We did have 1 nicely taken picture. =) And also to update what I got for my christmas present from bf:  He's name is ZhunZhun! hee..  Isn't he cute? Love him lots! =) Think I'll be bringing him out often. So don't get shock if you see me carrying a bear around! =) ♥ Thursday, December 25, 2008 @ 1:55 PM
`Merry Christmas Its gonna be a very rubbish post. Not really in the mood to blog. But I didn't want to neglect my blog. Just wanna add a new post in. So here is it, talking about rubbish. I had many thoughts. Many things I wanna talk about. But I've forgotten so much. Maybe I'm overly stressed by other problems that I kept forgetting stuffs lately. Nevermind. I hate the feeling of having to stay home cuz of not having enough to spend. I shall try to find some online movies to watch. Since I have not done so for quite some time. Emo aura is all around me once again. I think I've changed. I'm not thinking correctly, again. I kinda miss chatting with ee khing about issues, and he always had a simplified way to be able to look at issues, thus being able to solve it in a easier way. Anyone else able to do that for me? Anyway. Merry christmas to all my friends and families. =) ♥ Saturday, December 20, 2008 @ 3:34 PM
`Motivate! I need to motivate myself to get my butt out of home. I need to get materials. But I'm a little lazy. I love nua-ing at home. I hate to go out when I'm low on funds. I have to constantly thinking how to shop for cheaper stuffs. Wait.... I suddenly remembered. I've not gotten the present for Jinxing. Hmmm...... Some issues have been in my mind lately. Been thinking if I should convert to full-timer. But my office is so far away. I'll have to solve this issue myself. 1 more week for me to make my decision. ♥ Sunday, December 14, 2008 @ 9:45 PM
`Surprise! =) I've gotten fever after going out with Ven last Wednesday. Going in and out of almost every shopping centre in town. Being expose to the air con and hot weather. In shopping centre, COLD Out of shopping centre, HOT COLD, HOT. COLD, HOT. COLD, HOT. COLD, HOT. COLD, HOT. COLD, HOT. But it was a fruitful trip down to orchard. All worth myself falling sick. =) Ven and me was walking around PS aimlessly. I couldn't find what I want there. So I suggested going to the arcade. Looking at people around trying hard to catch chip in d arcade, I was wondering if I should try to catch one for my bf. He loves chip and dale. Influence me la! But I wasn't very confident. I was always lucky for my other previous catches. I don't know how other people were to be able to catch soft toy so easily from those machine. I have no tactics at all, and simply armed with lady luck by my side. So I changed my mind and walk out of the arcade. Walking around, we was looking at miniature toys and chance upon this shop with lots of gacha machines. Walking around the shop, I spotted this machine with mini chip and dale hand phone strap. Yes, I'm attracted to it. (influenced by my bf!) There I was popping in $1 coins to try my luck. And..... TADAA!  I've got both chip and dale for just spending $6! WAHAA! Simply overjoyed!  Chip.  and Dale.  How both of them should look like. Super cute right? =DD Considering lady luck is really on my side, I've decided to head back to the arcade to try my luck with the machine. Hehehehehhehe......... TADAA again....!  =) I've caught chip! Happily hugging chip with me, we head out of PS and walk around orchard. The whole thing on my mind was, if he's gonna be happy seeing all my catches. Just pass all my catches to him yesterday. He seems happy. I'm relieve. Cuz I'm afraid he's gonna scold me for spending money again. =( But I just want him to happy and know that I'm always thinking of him and think of how to make him happy. =) Been to his house yesterday, and stayed for the night. Seen some of his photos and videos. And saw that he changed his wallpaper to our picture. So.......... From this:  I changed to this:  Same as his wallpaper. =) Simply love having the same things as him.. Hee. Don't say I childish ok? =P ♥ Wednesday, December 10, 2008 @ 12:00 PM
`Sick Armed with a box of Strepsils and tube of Robitussin, made my way to work in the morning, reluctantly. Quickly snatched up a seat in the MRT and rest my eyes peacefully. Only when I was nearly to paya lebar, I realized I forgot to bring my office keys. Holy cow. I'm stuck somewhere near to my workplace and nowhere near my house. Not knowing if I should head home to take my keys. If I were to head home, I'll be better off staying home instead since I'm not feeling too well. Yet I wanted to work. So short of money lately. How ironic. I ended going home since its no point working for half a day. And also spending extra travel fee to and fro from work. And my laziness overtake my brain, controlling my brain to head home. Now, here am I. Wondering what to do later. Or if I should head town to get materials for present? Dilemma between what to do..... Was waiting for LiHui's sms if she's able to meet up. But she's going out with her bf, for their 6th month anniversary. And just in time, Ven will be going to town for an interview. Just nice, someone to accompany me to town and for lunch. Thanks Ven. =) My exams are over. My gaming itch is back again. Wondering if I should go back to play Granado Espada? But all my items and money are all gone. Raided by my old guild. Shall download and decide later. Yes I'm sick again. Sigh......... I've been nagging people around me to take care of themselves. Drink more water, get good rest and sleep, eat well, take care... And yet I'm always the one falling sick instead. Having cough and sore throat. I shall try to drink more water and pray hard that I'll recover by Saturday. ♥ Tuesday, December 9, 2008 @ 11:23 PM
`Photofunia A lack of posts due to my exams. Although I've not been updating much on my blog, it doesn't mean I didn't touch my computer at all. Yes, I'm guilty. Been going online, msn, friendster, facebook, surf web, listen to songs, I'm guilty of all the above. Minimizing my time to study. Let's not talk about my exams anymore. I'd better be prepared to see a FAIL when my results are sent over. Was super down all the way to meet my bf. To add on that I'm feeling kinda unwell. Maybe its the bad weather. Maybe I'm not drinking enough water. Maybe I'm eating too much heaty stuff. Maybe I've not been resting well lately. Maybe I'm over-stressed. Maybe.......... Two important things to let my dear know: 1. Thank you. For caring so much for me. And even wanna think of ways to cheer me up. Super thanks for giving me a surprise by popping up after my exams, way down to Bishan. 2. Sorry. For making you worry so much for me. And you have to put in so much effort to cheer me up. A couple of days ago, I've got to know of this Photofunia website where you could have fun photo effects with our own pictures. Out of boredom and curiosity, I've start digging my own older photos and begin my fun exploration:  Picture of me when my good-old webcam is still workable.  Pictures of me 2 years ago.   Tried with my bf's picture. Best friends' pictures:   Don't both of the pictures look weird? Maybe I should edit my own pictures to a Sepia finish instead, before applying the effect.  The picture looks too sharp for the effect of an old ah ma looking at old photos.  Ahhh.. Looks better. Cuz my original picture was a bit blurred. So it has the effect of a worn-out feeling. One of my favourite. My bf & me:  This looks so wrong. It looks as if that guy is hunting for us. Like an assassin.   Both of it still don't look right.  On the headlines!  This looks fake.   Wrong.. XXXXXXX  My favourite. Looks as if its a book of our story. Our love story. The rest of the effects, can be found at http://www.photofunia.com/. ♥ Friday, December 5, 2008 @ 5:09 PM
`Don't emo please. After reading recent entries posted by jx, plus her emo and sad background music, I can't help but to feel sad and emo too. I'm a very emotional person ok. Sometimes, looking back, I actually know that I'm a very fortunate person. For example comparing my family to Crystal's & JX's. Somehow, my problems are not as big as them. My problems can be solved. I've always able to meet the correct people to help me in my life. I have great friends around me too. Maybe I've been a very good person my past life. Somehow I wonder, why humans can't be contented with what they have? When I was young, I used to compare with people with better stuffs, better family backgrounds. And my mum taught me to compare myself with people who are less fortunate than me. Why must we compare with people who are so much better than us? And neglect the fact that there's much more people who needs help, care and concern, not only from their own family, but also from strangers. There's so many people out there that is even struggling to survive. Girl, don't emo ok? Feeling emo today, will pass on and affect every other days. Somehow, we have the same thinking. Of knowing that we are being made used of, but still wants to treat people around us nicely. ARGH! Just hate it when my friends feel emo over not being appreciated. Christmas is just around the corner. I have invites for different gathering for Christmas eve. It was tempting. But I've decided! I want to spend my christmas eve with jx. Its her 21st birthday! Whole lifetime only once. Besides, I've always been accompanying her for her birthday for the past few years. Birthday are not to be celebrated without close friends. Unless she don't consider me as her close friend ;) Hope she's able to get her leave on that day. *praying hard for her* |
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